overwhelmed

Do you ever have days were you just feel like you are drowning and just ever get caught up on life. Some days I get overwelmed with all the things I should be doing or lack of doing. The list of chores is a mile long. There are places on that list that haven't been touched in weeks.
There are projects I start with gusto such as project. Eventually I have a week behind which then turns into a month and half. Now thinking about trying to catch up overwelms me. I used to be on top of doing "school" related activities with Jordan. I loved planning them and doing them with him. I still love the planning part and will sometimes spend hours searching for theme related activities. In the end I never end up making the time to do them with. I feel like I have failed in so many areas that I could have done more, been there more, or could have done differently. I really want to get into a routine of daily time with God and his word through devotional and using the notes from church but again I can never find, I guess more make, the quiet time to do so. Then the week passes by I look back at all didn't do and wanted to do and again feel like I failed myself and my family.
Every week I set out to exercise more and eat better. I am lucky if I get to the gym once a week lately. I am lazy and make excuses. I don't why since I always feel better after I do go. And then the week is over and Monday rolls around again and I get mad at myself for not going the last week.
As you may know I am doing a giveaway on my blog. Nothing huge and fancy. But I was so excited to do it to and to give a little gift to someone. To enter you just have to leave a comment saying hi and who you are. I just wanted to know who is out there and reads my blog occasionally. The post has been viewed over 50 times but under 10 people even took the time to say hey. To be honest I am kind of bummed. This was something I was counting down post until I could do it. Ask Josh I was pretty giddy. I guess my feelings are a little hurt that people didn't want to say hi and I enjoy reading your blog. Again, feel like I failed in some way. I am trying to not let this take away from that excitement I had. I did want to hear from readers but even more I wanted to bless someone with a little gift.
I hope I am not the only one who gets in these little funks. I guess that is how I am today in a little funk. I know it will pass but I find I have these days quite often. Just get overwelmed with all the thoughts of things I should and need to do. My solution is then to do nothing and not deal with any of it. Not a good solution I know. It helps to write about it and get it out there. Hopefully, I can start with a few things like laundry and dishes and get rolling from there.

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